Letters Written in White by Kathryn Perez

Blue's Book Reviews "LETTERS WRITTEN IN WHITE" by Kathryn Perez

Um. 
OMG. 
This. 
Book.
OMG.
No words.
Absolutely haunting.
Terrifyingly true. 

How do I even explain the emotions that this book brought out of me?  
How??  
I can't even put my thoughts into coherent words.  
The writing in this book sliced straight through my soul with a scythe.   It cut me into pieces.  
Because I KNOW this book.  I lived it once upon a time at the ripe old age of 18.

I too have suffered through debilitating depression.  I too had once decided to end the excruciating pain and suffering that was swallowing me up by choosing the black quietness of death over the unrelenting pain of waking up every day.   I too have written my story.   And maybe one day, I too will be brave enough to share it.

I've highlighted over 50% of this book so how do I even begin to pick what to share here?  

"Suicide doesn't happen all at once.  It starts small.  Those early seductive whispers of nagging self talk, worthlessness, self-hate, fear, or sadness curl into your ears subtly at first.  Eventrually it mutates into a relentless roar.  You really don't see death coming until suddenly, in one deeply dark moment, you're face to face with it.  Then, being worn down, exhausted from swimming in an ocean of despair, you drop at Death's feet and surrender.  Like a sander, it wears you down until there's nothing left to fight it off.  Soon your once strong oak exterior is worn down into a meager pile of sawdust.  I wish my husband knew how many times he's held the dust of me in the palms of his hands, slipping through his fingers."

Letters Written in White by Kathryn Perez is like nothing I've ever read before, but its also so very familiar for very person reasons.   
It will haunt you.
It will hurt.
It will give you not just a glimpse, but an IMAX view of depression.  
Everyone should read this book.  EVERYONE.
Whether you've suffered from depression, attempted suicide, or if you love someone who is suffering or had been successful at ending their life, this book brilliantly allows you to see and feel the hopelessness, the pain to keep living, the lullaby of lies that Death will sing so beautifully into your ears.  

Letters Written in White brings you understanding.  It does not sugar coat anything where depression and suicide are concerned.  
It is real.
It is raw.
It HURTS.
It is a MUST READ.

Blue's Book Reviews gives LETTERS WRITTEN IN WHITE by Kathryn Perez
FIVE HUNDRED THOUSAND REAL RAW MUST READ STARS!!!!




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November 9 by Colleen Hoover

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Finished November 9 by Colleen Hoover.

I LOVED IT!!
I LOVED IT!!
I LOVED IT!!

This book is absolute poetry.   The words sang into my mind as if it were my new favorite song playing inside my ear buds.  
Lines of words written, that needed to be re-read for the sole purpose of engraving those sentences into my memory.  
Colleen Hoover doesn't just put together letters to form words to form sentences, she creates works of art just by having her fingers hitting tiny buttons upon a keyboard, and with those simple movements from her hands, a masterpiece is created.  

"My flaws are what wake me up in the morning and what keep me awake every night."

"I just sometimes find it difficult to control my indignation in the presence of absurdity."

"One of the things I always try to remind myself is that everyone has scars," she says.  "A lot of them even worse than mine.  The only difference is that mine are visible and most people's aren't."

"You're a virgin."  He says it as more of a realization that a question.  "Yeah, but only for a few more minutes."

"He presses his mouth against my ear and whispers, "No combination of written words could ever do this moment justice."

And to throw back a quote from November 9;  No combination of written words could ever do this book justice.  
It is beautiful.  
It is breathtakingly poetic.  
If William Shakespeare were to be in an English class and study a love story just as we studied Romeo and Juliet in high school, old William would be studying November 9.
Blue's Book Reviews gives NOVEMBER 9 by Colleen Hoover 
FIVE I CAN'T FORM THE RIGHT WORDS ON HOW TO SAY HOW BEAUTIFUL THIS BOOK IS STARS!!!!

November 9 by Colleen Hoover

If You Dare (Deanna Madden Series) by Alessandra Torre

Oh how I have missed my psychotic stabby friend, Deanna Madden.

This is the 3rd book in this series, and oh how I pray it's not the last!

You must read The Girl in 6E and Do Not Disturb to fully understand the brilliance of this series.

As with the first two books, my heart raced and I lost sleep by waking up at 2am to read more because I had to know what was happening next!! 

I didn't want it to end and again, I hope we get more stories of Deanna!!  She has become one of my very favorite characters and I already miss her broken mind!!

If You Dare by Alessandra Torre consumed me, just as the other Deanna Madden books.

This is a FIVE FREAKING STAR SERIES!!! 

The Truth About Mack by Jettie Woodruff

Listen up because I am not playing around....BUY THIS FREAKING BOOK!!
Get into the crazy mind of Mack and all her secrets.  Jettie Woodruff blew me the hell out of my chair with this book!  Her insane, genius, brilliant writing in The The Truth About Mack will never leave you.  

I am still quoting lines from this book, after all these months later.  Mack and her hyper sexual, mental illness issues will take you on a dark journey of lies, flies, and blood with paralyzing truths in this story.

And because I coudn't put this book down because it consumed my life, I gave it FIVE BLOODY MATTRESS COVERED IN FLIES JUST LOOK AT IT STARS!!!!

Arsen by Mia Asher

Today's Blue Spotlight is Arsen by Mia Asher. 

When I say that this book will completely rip you a new pooter-pucker, I mean you will not be able to sit down for weeks from the butt hurt you will experience with Arsen!!!! Get the doughnut pillow ready, forget the wine, you're gonna need the hard stuff to get you through this one. Not. Kidding.

I wanted to literally beat Cathy, the main female character (stupid freaking weak freaking stupid Cathy) with anything that would cause her great pain and a slow death. I was screaming at my Kindle "WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!!???" I lost sleep. I had bad dreams. I had clarification on just how easily it can be for a woman to fall into the bed of another man, even when her husband is amazing, perfect, and loves her more than life itself. And honestly, it terrified me, because could this happen to me? Could this happen to you? Mainly, how, how, how could she do this???!!!! I retold this story to my husband and was visibly angry with tears in my eyes while talking to him about it.
True Story.

This book hurts. It hurts so freaking bad. I felt like throwing up from what Cathy was doing to her beautiful marriage. I was Team Ben all the way. Now don't get me wrong, our young and hot villain named Arsen, wins awards with his dirty mouth skills and how he baited and hooked a married woman to have a hot and filthy affair with him. I'm not sure how many women would have been able to resist him.

I feel that EVERY MARRIED WOMAN needs to read this book. It should be given to the brides as a wedding gift. It takes you on the journey of a beautiful marriage, and how a woman's selfishness and internal pain, allows another man to move in and literally obliterate that marriage. Thisbook shows the ugly truth on what happens when blind lust blows up in your face and blows up your entire life. Arsen became a drug to her and she became a full blown addict.

You will not be the same after reading Arsen. Expect to spend weeks, even months, thinking about these characters and the choices that were made.

I give Arsen by Mia Asher, 5 as in FIVE FREAKING BUTT HURTING BLUE STARS for making me scream, cry, lose sleep, and blubber to my husband that he will never have to worry about me ever choosing any man over him because I would never survive without him.

Thank you Mia Asher. Bravo, Ma'am. Bravo!!!

Commodity by Shay Savage

Blue's Book Reviews COMMODITY BY SHAY SAVAGE

Commodity was so unexpected.  I had no idea what was awaiting me with this book.  My heart raced and I was on edge.

Hannah is traveling with Falk, a body guard she's never met before.   They are on their way from Atlanta to Washington to testify against a powerful business owner and politician who was running a sexual trafficking ring.

Imagine going about your day and then explosions, buildings falling, but somehow you survive it while running into a train tunnel.  When you emerge, all the men in the streets seem to be dead and there are no women, children, livestock or pets anywhere.  Gone.  They are all gone.
There are survivors, like Hannah and Falk.
And those few survivors all seem to be all men.
The women who did manage to survive, are now a very valuable commodity in this new world and forced into sexual slavery if they are caught.

Falk's mission is to protect Hannah at all costs.
He's vowed to keep her safe.
Then, she's gone.
They took her.
Falk is mortally wounded and can't save her.
He spends months tracking and searching for her.
Never giving up.

Commodity was a roller coaster of a ride so buckle up and prepare for some sleepless nights.

I highly recommend adding Commodity to your library.  I also recommend watching Skillet's "I'm Not Gonna Die Tonight" videos on YouTube to go along with this book.
Not Gonna Die by Skillet
Not Gonna Die by Skillet with Lyrics

"In a world where everything was accessible with a few clicks on a smart phone, I had nothing.  In a world of chaos where we have to fight for our very existence, I have everything.  I feel fine.  I feel needed.  I am whole again."

Blue's Book Reviews gives Commodity by Shay Savage
5 Stomach Dipping Heart Racing Stars!!

The Jack and Jill Series by Jewel E. Ann

Blue’s Book Reviews THE JACK AND JILL SERIES BY JEWEL E. ANN

End of Day (Book 1)

Middle of Knight (Book 2)

Dawn of Forever (Book 3, coming in February 2016)

One of my followers and Biff’s (Blue’s Imaginary Facebook Friends) got my attention towards these books.  I’ve never read anything by Jewel E. Ann before this, and this Biff was so passionate about this series, that I downloaded the samples, befriended the author and she graciously sent me a copy of Book 1, End of Day.

Page one, HOOKED ME.

These books had it all.  The angst.  The heartbreak.  The suspense.  The hilarious banter.  The steamy sex.  The bad ass brother/sister twins with muscles and skills to kill anyone with just their thumbs if need be.  Secrets.   Love.  Murder. 

Jack and Jill Knight, aka Jackson and Jillian, were born at the ripe old ages of 29.  Their lives as Jude and Jessica Day died, along with their parents.  Now having to start their lives over, trying to remember that who they used to be is buried with their parents 6ft underground.

I loved these characters so much along with the twists and turns.  I never knew what to expect with each chapter!! 

Here are some quotes that I’ve saved;

“How could the person she mourned the most be the only one still living?”

“I know what it feels like to want to give up.  I know what it feels like to not feel in control of your body.  Living is so much harder than dying.”

“There’s no acceptance in watching someone die.  There’s only a lifetime of regret from knowing you couldn’t stop it from happening.”

“There are just some things in life that can only be erased by death.  I don’t want her to die, so I’ve accepted the crazy.”

End of Day was a bit slower paced, so I’m giving it FOUR BLUE STARS!

Middle of Knight was perfection and it gets FIVE BLAZING BLUE STARS!!!!

I can’t wait for BOOK 3 in February!!! 

Definitely add this series to you list of must reads!!!! 

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Blue's Book Reviews PRIEST by Sierra Simone

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PRIEST by Sierra Simone

I have to be completely honest here, I was terrified to read this book.  I mean, I’m a Born Again Christian that cusses a little and reads smutty romance books.  So there are some boundaries that I do have and any Christian should have some set boundaries that they will not cross.  But after seeing post after post after post about Priest, my curiosity got the best of me.  If things got really weird, I’d just stop reading it and move on to my next book.

But ohhhhhh boy.  Things definitely got something, but “weird” wasn’t ever the word that came to mind!!! 

Sierra Simone did a phenomenal job with this book and when I tell you that you better invest in some SHAMWOW PANTIES, THEN GET YOUR BUTT ON EBAY AND BUY SOME SHAMWOW PANTIES, or just wear an overnight pad while reading Priest because DAAAAYYYYUUUUMMMM. 

You know, even the best God loving couples should have a great and freaky sex life, and I felt that this book really had a great balance of hot sex, the internal struggle within a Christian to do the right things, love God and to know just how far to let our urges take us. 

“Both of us just stared down at it, this impossible sight:  me inside of her, a priest tasting the forbidden fruit and barely able to keep himself from eating it all.”

Priest is brilliantly written and as afraid as I was to read it, I’m now afraid for all of you who won’t read it for the same reasons I almost didn’t.  If you are on the fence with this one, then it’s not for me to tell you where to push your spiritual boundaries to.  But if you already read these types of books, then you will not be disappointed with Priest!!!

Here are my suggestions if you do decide to take the leap as I did;
#1.  Be wearing Sham-wow panties or overnight super heavy flow pads while reading.
#2.  Have your husband, boyfriend or BOB very handy while reading.
#3.  Confess that you read Priest by Sierra Simone to all your back door reading friends because if you’re like me, you keep your reading life hidden from your real life so that none of your church family shows up at your house crying and praying for your soul.  But seriously, you’ll want to tell your secret reading friends about this book, and you’ll want to do it often!!!

Blues Book Reviews gives PRIEST by Sierra Simone 
FIVE SINFULLY SENSUAL SEXY SINSATIONAL STARS!!!

Blue's Book Reviews BREAKING HIM by R.k Lilley

Blue’s Book Reviews
BREAKING HIM BY R.k. Lilley

Just a taste of some of my favorite highlights;

“He was mine before you ever had him, and even when you did, know this, a part of him as still mine. You never got what I had. You had what was left when I was done with him.”

“What we had was always a lie. I know because if it was real it wouldn’t have ended. It felt like forever, and forever was a lie.”

“Love doesn’t save our souls. It kills them.”

“I hate his lying, conniving guts, but sex with him can be a religious experience. He remembers things about my body that even I forgot…..Ah….Oh…I see….That they seemed to get. The universal understanding of phenomenal sex. Go figure.”

“Don’t talk. Your voice ruins it for me…..Shhh. I’m trying to pretend you’re someone else. Every time you speak it ruins it for me.”

At 3% into Breaking Him, I had already highlighted 18 passages. I can’t even count the number I have highlighted since finishing this book. Breaking Him to me, is possibly RK Lilley’s best book to date. And that is not an easy thing for me to say because her Tristan and Danika series, Bad Things, Rock Bottom and Lovely Trigger are high at the top of my most favorite series ever in the history of ever.

So for me to be able to say that she has possibly outdone herself, makes me almost sad and thrilled at the same time!

Scarlett and Dante. Dante and Scarlett. They have been in a bloody war with each other for years. Their hearts belonging to only each other, but decisions and choices were made years ago, that caused so much pain and suffering, that it changed Scarlett’s heart into vessel for revenge.

Scarlett is a masterpiece of a character and I loved her HARD!!!! RK Lilley captured brilliantly in Scarlett, what a broken heart can do to a person when that person doesn’t break. Scarlett didn’t break when her years of love and devotion with Dante ended. Scarlett transformed into the most beautiful weapon of mass destruction where Dante is concerned.

I loved everything about her. Her hate. Her thirst for his blood. Her vengeance. Her self-preservations. Her brokenness. I want to change my name to Scarlett because I loved her that much.

Dante, oh Dante. I have no idea the extent of what he did to Scarlett yet, but as much as I wanted to despise him as much as Scarlett did, I never could do it. His love for her slaps you in your face and even though she fights to always hurt him, he takes it.
Whatever it is that he did, he’s paid his dues with pain of losing her.

I’m sure Dante’s evil spawn of satan of a mother had something to do with the demise of their relationship and I’m going to start a Word file to record all of my fantasies of how I would want to see Dante’s mother killed off.

I cannot wait for the next book, BREAKING HER to come out!!! I wouldn’t say this was huge cliffhanger, but I WANT ANSWERS AND I WANT THEM NOW!! So it does leave you wanting MORE!!! AND I WANT MORE OF DANTE AND SCARLETT!!!!

Blues Book Reviews gives
BREAKING HIM by RK LILLEY
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FIVE FANEFFINGSTASTIC FREAKING OUTSTANDING FREAKING MAGNIFICENT FREAKING I HIGHLIGHTED ALMOST THE WHOLE BOOK FREAKING OUT OF THIS WORLD VOCABULARY WORDS IN THIS BOOK FREAKING-A FIVE STARS!!!!
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This book is BLUE KITTY CERTIFIED AND GETS THE BLUE KITTY STAMP OF APPROVAL!!!

Blue's Book Reviews SUSTAINED by EMMA CHASE

I can't remember ever staying up till 3am to finish a book!!! I could not put SUSTAINED down!!!!!

I FELT IT ALL IN THIS BOOK!!!! BRAVO!!!!!! STANDING OVATION!!!!!!!

“And she screams. A horrible, piercing wail that I’ll never forget as long as I live. Pain so bare, so raw, that thoughts aren’t even possible – just an endless flow of agonized sobs. Her knees give out, and I catch her.”

Sustained is classic Emma Chase, you get the sarcasm and great writing flow. This one though, wasn't so much laugh out loud as much as the much as her other books but still supplying the absolutely fantastic witty banter.

The characters, you just fall hard in love with each and every one of them. There are 6 orphaned children and their 26yr old aunt who is now their sole guardian and is trying to manage mourning kids along with her own personal mourning. When her brother and beloved sister in law were killed in a car accident, she had to leave college in CA and go to the kids in DC. She gave up everything for them, and she loves those children so beautifully, that you feel it strongly through Emma’s brilliant writing.

Then there’s Jake, ohemgee, Jake. I freaking love him!! I have tears in my eyes just thinking about him. Just wow. This is probably one of the best, if not the best book she's written to date, and that is not an easy thing for me to say when it comes to anything Emma Chase has written!!

The hot sex doesn't kick up until around 50%, but the incredible dialogue and everything else with this homerun, field goal, touchdown, hole in one and swoosh of a storyline, it didn't even need the sex scenes to be amazing!! Even though I do love me some smoking hot sex scenes and she never disappoints in this category, Emma Chase did not disappoint in the bumpin’ ugly scenes (ifyaknowwhatimean)!!!

I LOVED LOVED LOVED LOVED LOVED THIS BOOK!!!
Blues Book Reviews gives SUSTAINED by Emma Chase
FIVE BLUETIFUL BLUBBERING SCREAMING FROM THE ROOFTOPS STARS!!!!!!

Blue's Book Reviews A LOVER'S LAMENT by KL Grayson and BT Urruela

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A LOVER’S LAMENT by KL Grayson and BT Urruela

“Maybe we are all monsters, created by war like some lab experiment gone wrong.”

“It’s like all this death and destruction, losing buddies, and the kids growing up without me, I’ve lost my sense of feeling. I don’t hurt. I don’t ache for home. I just exist. I don’t feel like I have control anymore. But I need this.”

“The nights out here when I’m hurting so badly I’d rather die than bear the pain.”

I could go on and on with exceptional quote after exceptional quote that I’ve saved from this book. So many lines and paragraphs flow like poetry and pierced my heart on so many levels.

This finding each other again love story through brokenness and heartbreak, consumed my thoughts and heart. I found myself rambling about it to my husband, raving over the writing and knowledge that one of the authors lived and survived war himself. That he was able to articulate and capture the emotions and pain that soldiers feel during their times of deployment and the ugly and silent truth that today may be their last day.

This book is absolutely beautiful to me on the level of Archer’s Voice by Mia Sheridan. I want to climb into this book and protect Sergeant Devin Clay, from anything that could hurt him, just like I did with Archer.

Blue’s Book Reviews gives A LOVER’S LAMENT by KL Grayson and BT Urruela
FIVE FANTASTIC BLASTING PHENOMENAL POETIC I WANT TO SHOUT IT FROM THE ROOFTOPS BLUE STARS!!!!!